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90 Days and A Letter to my Future Self

It feels like today is not just another day. I feel really odd inside and out. I made it to the 90 day of sobriety. I should feel elated and parts of me do. Then I feel sad. I feel … Continue reading

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It Really is That Intense – Part I – Name That Feeling

77 Days in and I am pretty content with a hint of anxiety. I have a lot of road ahead of me. I have been dwelling a lot on my past. Specifically in my New York City years. I was … Continue reading

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Cravings of the cyclical kind, not the chocolaty kind. (AA Discussed; Doctor’s note)

Question came up in group reading the other night. What are your cravings? What do they look like? I actually had forgotten (forgetters) what they were like. We were reading the doctor’s note and it speaks about the alcoholics cyclical repeats / … Continue reading

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60 days in, feeling pain and pressure

30 days in I was feeling pretty lousy but was gently cocooned in a pink cloud. I was definitely feeling on top of the world. I can do this! I got this! Read back to day 46/47 and I was starting … Continue reading

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Ice cream, you scream addicts scream for ice cream…

Seriously? I just typed that subject line. First of all, I really don’t like the ice cream man. Growing up we’d run for the truck. WE ALL DID. There was something so exciting about the chase. No matter where you … Continue reading

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From denial to descent and moderation, medicines and my mortal coil

I am owning this one. This mortal coil that I designed myself around alcohol. Shakespeare wrote in 1600 (Hamlet) about shuffling off this mortal coil. He basically meant to die, but Hamlet was tormented in life and spirit and suicidal and … Continue reading

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The First 30 Days – finally.

What does really happen during the 1st 30 days of sobriety? It depends. THAT is a stock answer for conditions that otherwise can vary. In this case, from person to person and degree of damage to our physical being and where our … Continue reading

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